I wander the world wide web, looking for that 'perfect niche' that I know doesn't exist. I compare myself to Beatle George. For the most of it, his material was suppressed outside of his 1-2 songs per album. After the Beatles' break-up, he was first to come out with something -- and what a something it was! A triple album entitled 'All Things Must Pass' which I love, feel and breathe. And it blasted right to a well-deserved #1.
Since my new-found freedom, I started a telecommunication company, which is nearing its 2-year anniversary. It's NY State Certified, partnered with Ingram Micro and a Cisco select partner, and in the local and the U.S. Women's Chambers of Commerce.
Today, I am also a journalist, a photojournalist, a roving reporter, and a critic. I promote local everything as well and write everywhere.
Most importantly to me though, is I have become a friend of the local music scene - the bands, the promoters, the staging crews, the venue managers and owners and the fans. I have come out to meet them and we have literally hugged. I even hand out prizes to try and find people who may need just to know someone understands, or to be a spark of hope, and meet hundreds of people every weekend. My friendship and fan base on Facebook exploded. People actually care about me and what I have to say. The reason why, unfortunately, is a common ground - domestic violence and abuse.
This writing is not to mull about that. I just want to write, and can't find anywhere that it fits in tonight. I've been writing for several blogs, columns and specialty visits, and I love to do it. I am proud that my writings get a huge following and response. My issue is I don't know what to do with it next. I feel that I need an action item.
The EXPOSURE Concert is really getting alot of hype... I'm getting ready to launch a street crew spearheaded by my daughter, Jackie. Many of the bands have been impacted, directly or indirectly, and the cause is personal to them; so it's a full circle for so many of us. We are uniting to expose it, because that's the only way out.
My next set of goals include launching a radio show promoting stuff I think is cool, calling out the next hits in music, recommending bands that I think have "the sound," and helping people in their relationships in whatever way people want me to... funny, or drop-dead serious. I'm here for them, not for me.
I am a music historian and live melodies. I got over the fact my musical intake and exposure was stifled for 22 years only listening to classic rock... since September 2008 I left that stale arena and starting with Temple of the Dog's 'Hungerstrike', taught myself everything since, with YouTube, Wiki, searches and forums. I get it now, I'm back in the saddle, and lovin every minute of it! I have learned who Pearl Jam was and is, and have actually painted 'Alive' in my bathroom, because I didn't want the same-old dolphin or ocean theme.
Stuff I thought was off limits for me... from finding jewelry and clothes that I think are 'me'.. to traveling I find myself doing.. I've gone to help my very best friend since 1st grade out in Red Rock, Arizona, and also flew to Los Angeles, for a week, saw Laguna and Venice Beach with another friend since grammar school; companies were fly me
to NYC and LA, this was amazing. I turned my business trip into a 'Peace Mission' and my friend will attest, as well as the hundreds of Facebook photos, I made tons of friends, met lots of musicians, and they have sent me really touching emails saying how they love what I'm doing. How rewarding to me. It only makes me want to go more. Reach more people. Make a difference and keep it going.
I show everything to my Facebook friends, it was really cool getting ariel pics, especially of sunrise descending over Chicago, to Eddie Vedder's 'Rise' a beautiful song featuring mandolin, a very spiritual feel. Music means so much to me. At my own house, TV has been non-existent since April, 2008. The radio is on from my waking til my sleeping moment, every single day. I keep abreast of current events by reading the news online, and overviews of my facebook friends.
I had to un-learn all the stuff that was embedded and beaten into my beliefs... and started to learn for myself, and draw my own conclusions. I find that people are pretty cool. Ya gotta stay away from the negative, the whiney, the woa is me folks, and the drama freaks, but after a while, you learn how to pick them out. I can't believe all the amazing, positive, good people, that I have met in the past year. I've partied with tons of facebook friends virtually, which means chatting while having a few beers. Its great. We get to know each other without leaving the house, no drinking and driving, just chilling and talking about stuff happening in our worlds.
I believe things fall apart so other things fall together, often we miss our calling because we're too busy with little crap to notice, that we don't take the time to acknowledge people, and put too much into shiny things.
Don't tell me for one minute that you can't make a difference. I am one person. I have made a difference. And it feels so good, that it's become my destiny as kooky as that sounds. I'm all for peace, music and freedom. If someone can find fault with that... then they just suck.
I care about every person because every person has a purpose, is beautiful and has promise. Too often we don't realize greatness just beyond our finger tip's reach. Once in a while, we need to let go and lie in a country field and stare at the stars. With some cool music playing in the background to fit your mood.. maybe James Taylor, maybe some Beatles.. maybe some Moody Blues.. or maybe even some Pearl Jam.. music definitely enriches... way more than TV can... TV takes us away from each other... and I believe music brings us together... oh and with that, Longview from Greenday just came on.
I hope I can find some places to post this, cuz I feel people care, but it doesn't fit under self-help, morals and values, entertainment, none of that... !?!?!? help
love you guys - Peace Priestess